有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆
有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一个出口。
有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。
有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。
有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。
有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。
有时候，希望时间为自己停下，做完己还没来得及做的事情。
有时候，想一个人躲起来脆弱，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。
有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。
有时候，夜深人静，突然觉得不是睡不着，而是固执地不想睡。
有时候，走过熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一个人的脸。
有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表达。
有时候，觉得自己拥有着整个世界，一瞬间却又觉得自己其实一无所有。
真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。
有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里地发一次疯。
有时候，突然找不到自己，把自己丢的 无影无踪。
有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。
有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。
有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了。
有时候，听到一首歌，就会突然想起一个人。
有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌。
有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。
有时候，看着时间一点点流逝，任凭叹息，自己却无能为力。
其实，有时候，真的会想这么多。
跟朋友装沉默，跟陌生人讲心里话。对于在乎你的，不想让Ta们担心，有时候，没有消息就是一种好消息。其实，很想说“我很好”，或许是昧着心说谎，也只是想把最灿烂的一面，放在每个人对自己印象的首页。
丢了的自己，要记得捡回来……
Friday, July 16, 2010
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
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Once again I updated my blog. LOL
It such a horrible, terrible and "vegitable" life. Bz until mad (although I'm not as bz as u thought). However, it is normal for us, the Y-Generation to be mad and crazy in such a appropriate way, e.g. thinking-out-of the box, creativity, energetic and etc.
I found that these required conditions are not in me. The fulfillment is not that much. I really hard to come out with new ideas (izzit imply I'm the old-thinker)?? OmG!!! I always said that, we have to take part in any activities that can improve your own skills. It sounds like I'm an active person, rite?
Actually, I had evaluate myself for these past 19 years that I had gone through. I have nothing >.< !! Nothing, nothing at all!!! I joined Y.E.S. AGM last week, and it was time to intro myself after the nomination of post in order to let others know more about me and also time to "show off" myself, how I really have my abundant experience and all those. I was grief-stricken. I hold no post instead of just joined as a helper. Upset! Izzit the time for me to start over again??? Izzit the challenge for me???
Oh no!! Life full of difficulties and challenges. No matter wad, you have to withstand with it. Make used of all your time...I was failed for my time management and until now easily to get distracted by those enticement, such as launching the internet for non-purpose. What such a wasting time action?!!! I have to disciplined myself in a very very strict way, otherwise, I will be a failure person. I will failed my life, failed those who putting hope on me (my parent), failed to become the child of GOD.
p/s: GOD, I earnestly seek for your presence in my whole life! I don't want be a failure person. I want to be a disciplined and self-motivate, and can come out with creativity ideas. As for You are great, I will do whatever based on your will. Have mercy on me~
It such a horrible, terrible and "vegitable" life. Bz until mad (although I'm not as bz as u thought). However, it is normal for us, the Y-Generation to be mad and crazy in such a appropriate way, e.g. thinking-out-of the box, creativity, energetic and etc.
I found that these required conditions are not in me. The fulfillment is not that much. I really hard to come out with new ideas (izzit imply I'm the old-thinker)?? OmG!!! I always said that, we have to take part in any activities that can improve your own skills. It sounds like I'm an active person, rite?
Actually, I had evaluate myself for these past 19 years that I had gone through. I have nothing >.< !! Nothing, nothing at all!!! I joined Y.E.S. AGM last week, and it was time to intro myself after the nomination of post in order to let others know more about me and also time to "show off" myself, how I really have my abundant experience and all those. I was grief-stricken. I hold no post instead of just joined as a helper. Upset! Izzit the time for me to start over again??? Izzit the challenge for me???
Oh no!! Life full of difficulties and challenges. No matter wad, you have to withstand with it. Make used of all your time...I was failed for my time management and until now easily to get distracted by those enticement, such as launching the internet for non-purpose. What such a wasting time action?!!! I have to disciplined myself in a very very strict way, otherwise, I will be a failure person. I will failed my life, failed those who putting hope on me (my parent), failed to become the child of GOD.
p/s: GOD, I earnestly seek for your presence in my whole life! I don't want be a failure person. I want to be a disciplined and self-motivate, and can come out with creativity ideas. As for You are great, I will do whatever based on your will. Have mercy on me~
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