“看到自己的成绩很差很伤心；看到别人拿到好成绩，又羡慕又懊悔”。我相信这是大多数学生都会有的感觉。
果然还是俗语说得好：“几分努力，几分收获！”。 往往都不怎么用工、不怎么努力，硬着头皮拼下去，为的是不辜负父母对我的期望&让自己有所交待； 到头来所得到的不怎么理想、差强人意。自责为何这样这样这样、当初为什么不这样这样这样。。。
Guys and girls,
From now onwards, try not to blaming yourself or others that why you can't get this or that? It is because you never put all the effort on it(refer to some cases but not all/everything).
Share one life script with you all which may probably encourage you whenever & whatever you are doing.
The me I see is the me I'll be.
If I can hold it in my head, I can hold it in my hands.
The vision that I glorify in my mind,
the ideal that I enthrone in my heart,
this I will build my life by & this I will become.
As I advance confidently in the direction of my dream,
and endeavor to live the life that I have imagined,
success will come to me unexpectedly in common hours.
Mind is the master power that moulds & makes,
and man is mind, and ever more he takes the tools of thought and shaping what he wills,
brings forth a thousand joys, a thousand ills;
I think in secret & it comest to pass,environment is but my looking glass.
I become what I think about, I am the sum total of my thoughts.
THOUGHTS BECOME THINGS.
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Friday, July 16, 2010
丢了的自己，要记得捡回来
有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆
有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一个出口。
有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。
有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。
有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。
有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。
有时候，希望时间为自己停下，做完己还没来得及做的事情。
有时候，想一个人躲起来脆弱，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。
有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。
有时候，夜深人静，突然觉得不是睡不着，而是固执地不想睡。
有时候，走过熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一个人的脸。
有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表达。
有时候，觉得自己拥有着整个世界，一瞬间却又觉得自己其实一无所有。
真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。
有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里地发一次疯。
有时候，突然找不到自己，把自己丢的 无影无踪。
有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。
有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。
有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了。
有时候，听到一首歌，就会突然想起一个人。
有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌。
有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。
有时候，看着时间一点点流逝，任凭叹息，自己却无能为力。
其实，有时候，真的会想这么多。
跟朋友装沉默，跟陌生人讲心里话。对于在乎你的，不想让Ta们担心，有时候，没有消息就是一种好消息。其实，很想说“我很好”，或许是昧着心说谎，也只是想把最灿烂的一面，放在每个人对自己印象的首页。
丢了的自己，要记得捡回来……
有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一个出口。
有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。
有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。
有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。
有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。
有时候，希望时间为自己停下，做完己还没来得及做的事情。
有时候，想一个人躲起来脆弱，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。
有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。
有时候，夜深人静，突然觉得不是睡不着，而是固执地不想睡。
有时候，走过熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一个人的脸。
有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表达。
有时候，觉得自己拥有着整个世界，一瞬间却又觉得自己其实一无所有。
真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。
有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里地发一次疯。
有时候，突然找不到自己，把自己丢的 无影无踪。
有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。
有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。
有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了。
有时候，听到一首歌，就会突然想起一个人。
有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌。
有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。
有时候，看着时间一点点流逝，任凭叹息，自己却无能为力。
其实，有时候，真的会想这么多。
跟朋友装沉默，跟陌生人讲心里话。对于在乎你的，不想让Ta们担心，有时候，没有消息就是一种好消息。其实，很想说“我很好”，或许是昧着心说谎，也只是想把最灿烂的一面，放在每个人对自己印象的首页。
丢了的自己，要记得捡回来……
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
No title
Once again I updated my blog. LOL
It such a horrible, terrible and "vegitable" life. Bz until mad (although I'm not as bz as u thought). However, it is normal for us, the Y-Generation to be mad and crazy in such a appropriate way, e.g. thinking-out-of the box, creativity, energetic and etc.
I found that these required conditions are not in me. The fulfillment is not that much. I really hard to come out with new ideas (izzit imply I'm the old-thinker)?? OmG!!! I always said that, we have to take part in any activities that can improve your own skills. It sounds like I'm an active person, rite?
Actually, I had evaluate myself for these past 19 years that I had gone through. I have nothing >.< !! Nothing, nothing at all!!! I joined Y.E.S. AGM last week, and it was time to intro myself after the nomination of post in order to let others know more about me and also time to "show off" myself, how I really have my abundant experience and all those. I was grief-stricken. I hold no post instead of just joined as a helper. Upset! Izzit the time for me to start over again??? Izzit the challenge for me???
Oh no!! Life full of difficulties and challenges. No matter wad, you have to withstand with it. Make used of all your time...I was failed for my time management and until now easily to get distracted by those enticement, such as launching the internet for non-purpose. What such a wasting time action?!!! I have to disciplined myself in a very very strict way, otherwise, I will be a failure person. I will failed my life, failed those who putting hope on me (my parent), failed to become the child of GOD.
p/s: GOD, I earnestly seek for your presence in my whole life! I don't want be a failure person. I want to be a disciplined and self-motivate, and can come out with creativity ideas. As for You are great, I will do whatever based on your will. Have mercy on me~
It such a horrible, terrible and "vegitable" life. Bz until mad (although I'm not as bz as u thought). However, it is normal for us, the Y-Generation to be mad and crazy in such a appropriate way, e.g. thinking-out-of the box, creativity, energetic and etc.
I found that these required conditions are not in me. The fulfillment is not that much. I really hard to come out with new ideas (izzit imply I'm the old-thinker)?? OmG!!! I always said that, we have to take part in any activities that can improve your own skills. It sounds like I'm an active person, rite?
Actually, I had evaluate myself for these past 19 years that I had gone through. I have nothing >.< !! Nothing, nothing at all!!! I joined Y.E.S. AGM last week, and it was time to intro myself after the nomination of post in order to let others know more about me and also time to "show off" myself, how I really have my abundant experience and all those. I was grief-stricken. I hold no post instead of just joined as a helper. Upset! Izzit the time for me to start over again??? Izzit the challenge for me???
Oh no!! Life full of difficulties and challenges. No matter wad, you have to withstand with it. Make used of all your time...I was failed for my time management and until now easily to get distracted by those enticement, such as launching the internet for non-purpose. What such a wasting time action?!!! I have to disciplined myself in a very very strict way, otherwise, I will be a failure person. I will failed my life, failed those who putting hope on me (my parent), failed to become the child of GOD.
p/s: GOD, I earnestly seek for your presence in my whole life! I don't want be a failure person. I want to be a disciplined and self-motivate, and can come out with creativity ideas. As for You are great, I will do whatever based on your will. Have mercy on me~
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Freshyy.
WOW!!! Juz have a walk around the westlake and found many of freshy. It's make me heartbeat and excited when I saw all the freshy. It's not mean that I'm "hamsap", looking around for the lenglui..it juz that I had been assigned by God to lead and guide the freshy to suit to this new land of Kampar. Like what I said, in order to grow up, you have to come out from the comfort zone.
It's really refresh me and reminded me. When I was freshy, I came to here with nothing. Nothing means in the aspect of spiritual. I felt lost in all the way since I was new to the place. Felt all the things new. But now, it is better. I had been in Kampar for almost 1 year. I think, it is my responsibility to guide all the junior here because I know that kind of feeling is really terrible when u r alone and lost>.< so, feel free to contact me whenever u need a help. It doesn't mean that I'm indeed make more new frens but not acting like a senior or 'hamsap' or other kind of ppl..juz wan to lend a hand to you all.
Recently, I had a vision from God that God had HIS plan on each of everyone of us to play our role on behalf God's will. Bro and sis, do keep in faith on HIM and pray hard that we have strength on doing all HIS will. Thx Lord..Praise you, LORD.~~
It's really refresh me and reminded me. When I was freshy, I came to here with nothing. Nothing means in the aspect of spiritual. I felt lost in all the way since I was new to the place. Felt all the things new. But now, it is better. I had been in Kampar for almost 1 year. I think, it is my responsibility to guide all the junior here because I know that kind of feeling is really terrible when u r alone and lost>.< so, feel free to contact me whenever u need a help. It doesn't mean that I'm indeed make more new frens but not acting like a senior or 'hamsap' or other kind of ppl..juz wan to lend a hand to you all.
Recently, I had a vision from God that God had HIS plan on each of everyone of us to play our role on behalf God's will. Bro and sis, do keep in faith on HIM and pray hard that we have strength on doing all HIS will. Thx Lord..Praise you, LORD.~~
Attitude towards all of us
JC attitudes towards all of us and so do we have to practice it.
JC was pleased with the nature of little children. For Mark 10:14-15, Matt 18:3-4, it means that y children have trust in their parent. Just because they have sincerity and genuineness. They just simply trust their parent and receive the blessing from the parent. Besides, we have to humbly come to depend on JC and to learn give and take the gift or the assistance or chances that are offered. Furthermore, we should humble ourself to be teachable and wiling to learn. We must be thankful for the JC' attitude and be obedient to HIM.
One thing that come to my mind is that, it is good being a child. As for they, all the expression will post on their face. And what they said are what they mean. Yes, they mean it "YES". No, they mean it as "NO!". However, from what had been done among most of us are we do not mean it on what we said. Of course, I'm not asking and predicting all of us posting out our expression in front of the people since we had become an adult and have to be "jaga" our face.XD
Nowadays, the answer from people not really relevant to the question. It's quite irritating and annoying. They answer other things else instead of giving the answer that is appropriate to the question. Come on, girls and guys!!! You know, sometimes when I'm asked you a simple question which need your simply reply on 'yes' or 'no' or giving some reasons on why u can't make it, you gave a long long excuse. For what?!!! Giving an excuse to comfort yourself?? Mean it on what u said. Giving a convenient for you yourself and also others. Yes, plz mean it "yes"; No, plz mean it "no". Juz like a child, sincere and genuine. Thank you..
JC was pleased with the nature of little children. For Mark 10:14-15, Matt 18:3-4, it means that y children have trust in their parent. Just because they have sincerity and genuineness. They just simply trust their parent and receive the blessing from the parent. Besides, we have to humbly come to depend on JC and to learn give and take the gift or the assistance or chances that are offered. Furthermore, we should humble ourself to be teachable and wiling to learn. We must be thankful for the JC' attitude and be obedient to HIM.
One thing that come to my mind is that, it is good being a child. As for they, all the expression will post on their face. And what they said are what they mean. Yes, they mean it "YES". No, they mean it as "NO!". However, from what had been done among most of us are we do not mean it on what we said. Of course, I'm not asking and predicting all of us posting out our expression in front of the people since we had become an adult and have to be "jaga" our face.XD
Nowadays, the answer from people not really relevant to the question. It's quite irritating and annoying. They answer other things else instead of giving the answer that is appropriate to the question. Come on, girls and guys!!! You know, sometimes when I'm asked you a simple question which need your simply reply on 'yes' or 'no' or giving some reasons on why u can't make it, you gave a long long excuse. For what?!!! Giving an excuse to comfort yourself?? Mean it on what u said. Giving a convenient for you yourself and also others. Yes, plz mean it "yes"; No, plz mean it "no". Juz like a child, sincere and genuine. Thank you..
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Doubtful of making choices
Sometimes, you will be very doubtful or uncertain of something that you gonna to make a choice. When come to decision making, it is hard for everyone to think logically and rationally. You have to give up something in order to gain that you won't probably know it well. As one wording show: "dun try to save a little only to suffer big loss", you will probably suffer massive painfulness.
I just came back from church for prayer meeting and taken my supper at mamak stall, Haji Ghany and have no chance to cycle back as it was raining cats and dogs. Meanwhile, my housemate and I were wondering either to cycle back in the downpour or "lompang" church brother's car that offered to fetch us back. Neither both of us have any idea as we dun wan to bring trouble to others(for I have to wake up early in the nxt morning for ice-breaking gaming trial session). After that, I came an idea to "lompang" car as the weather really too bad and not suitable to cycle back. However, dunoe somehow, from the moment we enter the car, it stopped raining. It was amazed.
So, fren...here comes for some little advice or encouragement. Do not be doubtful. You have to make a choice whenever u have to do it. Do not put too much worry that burden yourself and eventually you make nothing. Just have faith and not to doubt. For the one who believe, there will be a path for you that had set in arrangement of God. Just like choosing the courses, you have a lot of uncertainty. The most important thing is that you have the patience throughout the studying process. It's not which courses is more easier to study. Every course have it's difficulty. And it's a tragedy case to choose the courses based on it's "money-value" in the society. In other words, which courses will make more money in the future. Bear in mind. Do not let the money-mind choosing courses for you, is you choosing the course that make your life fruitful.
p/s: God really answered my prayer. I kept on praying when I was taking my supper to stop the rain. Thx God^^
I just came back from church for prayer meeting and taken my supper at mamak stall, Haji Ghany and have no chance to cycle back as it was raining cats and dogs. Meanwhile, my housemate and I were wondering either to cycle back in the downpour or "lompang" church brother's car that offered to fetch us back. Neither both of us have any idea as we dun wan to bring trouble to others(for I have to wake up early in the nxt morning for ice-breaking gaming trial session). After that, I came an idea to "lompang" car as the weather really too bad and not suitable to cycle back. However, dunoe somehow, from the moment we enter the car, it stopped raining. It was amazed.
So, fren...here comes for some little advice or encouragement. Do not be doubtful. You have to make a choice whenever u have to do it. Do not put too much worry that burden yourself and eventually you make nothing. Just have faith and not to doubt. For the one who believe, there will be a path for you that had set in arrangement of God. Just like choosing the courses, you have a lot of uncertainty. The most important thing is that you have the patience throughout the studying process. It's not which courses is more easier to study. Every course have it's difficulty. And it's a tragedy case to choose the courses based on it's "money-value" in the society. In other words, which courses will make more money in the future. Bear in mind. Do not let the money-mind choosing courses for you, is you choosing the course that make your life fruitful.
p/s: God really answered my prayer. I kept on praying when I was taking my supper to stop the rain. Thx God^^
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Day of Excitement & Fatigue
I woke up this morning and attended orientation programme helper training session. In order to take part, I had came back earlier one day b4 that is yesterday. Yesterday indeed train "malaysia boleh", only can praise for one day. Dun be arrogant >.< wkaka
B4 starting the briefing session, we played 2 games. One is "To Know Each Other" and "Conquer the Obstacle with blinded eyes". These two games is to awake us and have its meaning behind reminded all of us. After that, is the general briefing for registration day and goodies redemption training. Den, we are free to take our lunch in 1 hr time and move to Block B gathered. We started packing all the goodies for about 2 hrs and move to Heritage Hall. It's indeed a so called "wonderful" experience for those ppl who are rich and reluctant to work by their parent's will. The packing process was just liked working in a factory. Every employees work like a machine, non-stop and do the same thing all the time until he/she get off.
Being helper indeed a meaningful experience that not only help the freshmen and also help yourself too. You, as a senior(but dun too acting la), guide ur junior and the freshmen to suit to the new environment that is away from their comfort zone that is their sweet sweet home. But had been said is, you have to leave your comfort zone for growth and try something new and challenging. So, guys and girls, be independent and start to learn everything and do everything by yourself but not to depend on your parent. We have to grow up. We have to face everything, every obstacle and every kind of ppl. One thing is that we must not stop from learning whenever giving an opportunity. Stop complaining and accept it. As for you will never know what you had learned today, is useful and bring benefit to you in future. And stop have the thought that: "Aiya...tis thing is useless and not useful to me. So, I dun wan to learn la...!". What a tragedy?!! Frens, learn, learn, learn and...learn!!
p/s: Thx God for everything and your blessing.
B4 starting the briefing session, we played 2 games. One is "To Know Each Other" and "Conquer the Obstacle with blinded eyes". These two games is to awake us and have its meaning behind reminded all of us. After that, is the general briefing for registration day and goodies redemption training. Den, we are free to take our lunch in 1 hr time and move to Block B gathered. We started packing all the goodies for about 2 hrs and move to Heritage Hall. It's indeed a so called "wonderful" experience for those ppl who are rich and reluctant to work by their parent's will. The packing process was just liked working in a factory. Every employees work like a machine, non-stop and do the same thing all the time until he/she get off.
Being helper indeed a meaningful experience that not only help the freshmen and also help yourself too. You, as a senior(but dun too acting la), guide ur junior and the freshmen to suit to the new environment that is away from their comfort zone that is their sweet sweet home. But had been said is, you have to leave your comfort zone for growth and try something new and challenging. So, guys and girls, be independent and start to learn everything and do everything by yourself but not to depend on your parent. We have to grow up. We have to face everything, every obstacle and every kind of ppl. One thing is that we must not stop from learning whenever giving an opportunity. Stop complaining and accept it. As for you will never know what you had learned today, is useful and bring benefit to you in future. And stop have the thought that: "Aiya...tis thing is useless and not useful to me. So, I dun wan to learn la...!". What a tragedy?!! Frens, learn, learn, learn and...learn!!
p/s: Thx God for everything and your blessing.
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